Sunday, April 10, 2011

Fucking Bruised


I feel like a spectator. I like going to concerts and standing still, watching the music, watching the dancing. People think that I am shy and that this inhibits my ability to let loose and dance. The truth is, I am afraid I will miss something if I do. Maybe I am what people are afraid of when they are too shy to shake it up.

Last night we found an oddly placed rope swing hanging over the toxic green harbour downtown. The three that I was with did not even hesitate, they climbed down slowly but determinedly, they stepped gingerly over the chain rope barrier, they swung for a few minutes before coming back up. It didn't even occur to me that this was something I should try out too until later. Maybe my purpose in life is to watch and record, to analyze and to store these things in my mind's eye. I can always remember people's names, even if I have never met them.

In this way I am an extrovert: I like to be where the action is so that I can see it happening. I want to meet people, to know them, to get their essence down even I will never share anything with them.

All of this about myself too. Just had a thought and pounced on the available keyboard. You talk about you for a bit, ok?